Thursday, December 30, 2010

What a decade...

it has been.... 2010 is about to come to an end and so is this decade... The journey from 2000 - 2010 has been quite eventful for me.. If 90s were all about education, studying, school, college, numerous dreams, friends, Dehra Dun, hopes, carefree life then this decade was all about work, job, travel, love lost, getting lonelier, moving, visiting places, buying house, experiencing life more closely, getting worried about future and moving out of Doon...

If I start with 2000, that was the year I lost my Nanaji and world came crashing down.. This year saw me leaving Doon.. The year also saw me moving into the big city of Pune and start my career. The year also witnessed us leaving our own house and moving to a rented place... The decade has seen a transformation of a young girl of merely 23 years who was scared to move into a big city to a mature woman of 33 years who has travelled alone in the night and to different parts of the country/world...

If I look back at this decade and analyze it, I have gained professionally a lot but lost personally majorly.. Yes there are a few good relations made, but the loss is tremendous. It has also seen me transform from someone who believed in love to someone who is slowly turning into a indifferent, cold, hard person.. I have lived alone, cried hot tears of anger, sometimes pitied, sometimes sympathized and sometimes angry at myself.. Still at the end of the day, I have managed to emerge out of it as strong as I can be, ready to face the brutalities of the selfish world..

A decade ago when I started working and moved to Pune, we had nothing... No money, no house, no security.. all that I had with me was dreams, hopes, zeal to make it big, my will to work hard... It allowed me to stick on... I grew confident of what I did and said.. I have happily cut those so called ribbons of relations, which were fake... People who gave me attitude, got double in return.. Some of them I dont care about any more... There are some whom I have become extremely fond of... They are going to stay with me forever, thats what I think as of now...

The decade saw me travelling to different parts of the country/world, which were extremely satisfying and rich in experience... This was my dream since childhood that once I grow up, I am going to travel to different places.. All the visits were purely for vacation sake... No company paid holidays or work-cum-pleasure visits, thankfully... Thats what makes me even more happier.. I managed to travel to so many places on my own. Of,course there was a lot of planning/saving involved each time, but thats what made it the best...

There are still a lot of places that I want to visit in the years to come.. Hopefully, some of the travel plans should materialize... The decade also witnessed me living alone and managing the house. I started cooking which I never liked before.. Surprisingly, I never learnt cooking as such.. But I found out that I am a very decent cook, whose meals have been liked and loved by every single person.. So I would like to believe that I have acquired the magic of my Mom's hands...

While I know that not everyone gets everything, what they wish for, I also know that God tries to balance out the gaps.. I have been quite unlucky in terms of having good relationship/love but I also believe that there must be something good in that.. God must have thought about it.. May be He wanted me to have other rich experiences before I finally take a breather..

The best part of this decade would be, buying my own house.. The last three/four posts have been about my home, still I want to write more about it.. I still marvel at myself many times for taking such a huge step.. Mom had been the biggest support behind it.. She had been asking me buy one for the quite a few years but I avoided.. Finally when I realized that it has to be now or never, that I took this big decision... One of my distant relative, who is extremely fond of me, someone who is also responsible for giving a flight to my career, whom I respect a lot for her independence and taking everything in her stride said to me: "I bought a house when I was 45 years old, but you bought a house when you are less than 35 years. I am so proud of you. You have done what many boys could not have done." She very fondly calls the main bedroom as Mistress Bedroom as opposed to the Master bedroom.. :-)

So this decade has brought a lot of change in me and my life, some of them were good, some not so good.. But I guess thats what and how life is.. As we step into the next one, I hope to have some more good experiences and move forward.. Just want to stick on with the relationships that are present currently.. About finding love, I am just leaving it as it is...

1 comment:

Pesto Sauce said...

It has been an eventful decade for you...I too relocated to a new city/country last year and hope this brings with it some changes