Friday, July 31, 2009

Rains in Doon

So you guessed it right.. I am in my Dehra Dun... It may seem that all I have to do in my life is go to doon and then write a post on it.. But then how does it matter.. I do it since I want to.. This is the monsoon season and as per the weather of Doon goes, when it starts raining, it rains continuously for days and the temperature comes down drastically. Not that you have to wear jacket or something, but it becomes very pleasant.. Forget A/Cs, you dont even need a fan most of the times.. Such is the lovely weather of Dehra Dun...

Everything looks washed and green.. The grass is greener, the trees have dripping water, the flowers are in bloom, the mountains are misty with clouds all over them, the sun plays hide and seek with the clouds, the moment it will be bright and sunny, the next moment it will be shady and cloudy.. If it starts raining, then there are big fat rain drops.. It pours like it will wash your heart as well from all the pain and fill it with love and gratitude.. Its a wonderful feeling here.. No blocked drains, no traffic jams, no water accumulation..

The rains here bring so much of love and togetherness.. It brings the families together.. sitting in an open verandah, watching the rains, sipping coffee, reading a book or simply watching the nature's harmony.. The squirrels run here and there to find a shelter, the birds sitting on the porch, the cows getting wet, the children playing in the water.. Ever drop of rain here is a music piece in its own.. I love those light drizzles as well as heavy downpour.. And when after a heavy rain in the night, when the sun shines brightly in the sky, its even better. Then you wonder, what song the rain played the night before.. Its magical..

Sometimes it seems to me, that I can go on and on about this place, where I have had wonderful memories of the childhod spent.. The rainy days also meant a smelly dog, damp clothes, books, almirahs, fungus.. everything seems to be damp except for the spirit of the people here.. The rains here lift the mood of a person.. so if you are in low spirits, and want some good in your life, come here.. You shall experience some of the best things in life here and in turn get to start loving life all over again.. It does that to me.. My heart comes to a rest here.. My soul is at peace when I am here.. so for love, peace, relaxation, smiles, heart bouncing - come to Doon... :-)

Friday, July 24, 2009

Old and alone.

Past few days have been extremely busy, considering random updates on the blog. Some of the reasons are stated in the previous post but there are others as well. No..no.. I am not going to start another post with reasons for not posting.

Well, there is a lot of thinking going around in my head. As I am growing wiser (if I can say that), there is constant fear that will I be growing wiser alone.. Yes, there are times when I feel a very strong urge to have someone besides me whom I can talk to freely, heart to heart and have that kind of conversation which you strike with your partner.. So if I put it technically, I do feel the need of having that someone special in my life with whom I shall share all that I want to..

The whole thought of getting old alone does scare me sometimes. Having family is one thing and growing with a partner is another. My heart does looks out for that unseen man.. It wants to love that person with all the love, passion that it holds inside. No matter how many close friends, supportive family you may have, in the end you do want to end up in that special someone's arms.. I want to experience the beautiful feeling of being loved, the way I shall love him.. I want to come back home to him and not to a lonely house. I want to cook for him. I want to see him growing old with me. I want to hold his hands whenever I feel scared. I want to have that feeling that, Yes, he is there for me whenever I need him. That he shall be mine and I'll be his. We will have our share our fights, arguments but still we will come back to each other...

I may sound like a hopelessly romantic person but its ok. I know I am.. Sometimes, its over-whelming for me to keep all this feelings inside me. Its like the heart is filled to the brim with love and its difficult to hold it from spilling over. I find myself vulnerable at that time.. I do hope that my dreams do not die before I could even share them.. I have full faith.. As they say, when the night is the darkest, the dawn is not very far away.. My knight in shining armor shall arrive soon, I hope so..

Friday, July 10, 2009

My crazy life

Ever since I came back from a short trip to Doon, I have wanted to write but the way my life is these days, is driving me up the wall. Its been crazily busy and its driving me mad to the level of me going insane...

There are so many things that I want to do, but I am just not being able to get time for them.. There is a music school close to my place that I want to explore but have not been able to.. I need to go for a hair-cut.. I have a few errands to do... I have to visit a relative's house to offer my condolences for a death.. I have to catch up with a few friends and relatives.. I have to call a few friends whom I have not spoken to for ages.. There are some missed calls which I have to return.. There are some emails lying which I need to reply to.. There are some books that I have to read.. The cleaning needs to be done.. The papers need to sort out... The cupboard needs to be arranged.. I have to visit the bank.. There is a letter lying to be posted..

Its just been crazy... I myself dont know where my day goes.. I have not been able to wake up early to go for my morning walk/jog... The maid comes in and rings to wake me up.. Thats when I run out of the bed and starts a mad day... Cleaning, washing, cooking, getting ready for the office.. By the time I am in office, I am half tired.. Sometimes I dont even get time to read the newspaper properly.. What goes in office these days is another story... 5 clients, 20 team members, with almost 2-3 meetings, escalations, issues, performance issues, urgent and last minute deliverables, the list goes on and on...

So now you know.. It does seems like a everyday life for some but for me, its getting too much.. I need a vacation... The only good part that I see is, at the end of the day when I lie in the bed, it does not take me more than 2 minutes to fall into a deep-deep slumber - something which so many people wish for....