Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Curvy???

While you are struggling with your weight problems, what happens when someone whom you respect, adore and care for, tells you : You have a great figure and those curves are to die for... And mind you, all this is said in a good sense with no other thoughts in mind..

Wondering... Wondering.. Wondering..

Hand Written!!!

How many times has it happened to you, that you have to write some important letter and instead of actually writing it with a pen, you resort to your PC or laptop.. Open MS-Word and start typing... Take a print out and send it across.. Easy and fast... Isnt it...

Well, I am also quite like that... Over the years, I have actually stopped writing with a pen.. Even during meetings, I prefer to make the notes on a notepad on a PC rather than writing them down... First it was to improve my typing speed... Now it has come to a situation that I type faster than I can write.. But the side effect is that my hand-writing has become bad from good.. and its on its way to become even more worse... I cannot hold pen properly, leave aside write...

All this while I was planning to improve my hand-writing by writing one page daily; I had to write a letter to a friend. Since the friend had limited or you can say, actually no access to internet, the only option left is to write a letter by hand which will be posted. I wrote a long letter and what a task it was...

First the search for a letter writing pad... I used to have lots of them till sometime back.. But now I had to search for one.. Once I found the pad, then the search for the right pen, which I can hold for a long time. Which will not pressurize my fingers too much and something which is an easy to write with and the ink also flows properly.. Then I realized, it would be better to write on a rough paper first.. I am not used to writing and I dont like cuttings in the letter incase I write something wrong.. This is not a wordpad where I can simply erase and re-write incase I find something not put across properly...

This actually looks like a big task to me.. I sat down to write the letter. I thought that it will not be more than a few lines since I do not have the patience nor the inclination to write big letters by hand anymore.. Once I started writing, it went on and I had to force myself to stop writing after 4 full long sheets.. The bigger size ones... Wah!! I was amazed myself... How could I write so much.. The best part was that even on those rough papers, I did not make any mistake.. There was no cutting.. I patted myself...

Now the real task was, writing it again on the letter pad.. Thats where the exam started.. It took more than an hour to write the whole thing again on a letter pad which had such small gaps between the lines.. The speed has become really really poor... My hand was aching very badly...

But I was happy at the end result... The hand-writing is not up to my best mark, but it was not bad either... I am happy that I could write a letter after so many years and that also a personal one.. Am sure the friend will be delighted to receive a hand-written letter from me..

The last time when I had written so much was almost eight years ago when I was in the college... Once out of it, writing by hand became less and less to the extent of being minimal.. From someone who got +5 in school for presenting such neat note-books and exam papers, its hard to believe that I am struggling to write a few lines... I still remember the day when my Economics register in class XI and XII was circulated among the students to copy the notes.. The teacher had got the whole register Xeroxed since he found it the perfect one to pass the notes whosoever could not attend his classes...

Now days pass by without me having to write anything with a pen.. I know this is the culprit for bad hand-writing.. To be true, I felt bad for not being able to write as I could before.. I have decided to write a page everyday to improve my hand-writing and my ability to hold the pen again properly.. Hope this helps to an extent..
While I write this post, the pen and the notebook is waiting for me to write today's page...

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Lull before the storm?

Offlate, things seem to go pretty well.. There is no issue anywhere. Work is fine.. Clients are fine. Boss is fine.. Team members are fine.. No major issues in personal life.. Friends are fine.. Family is fine.. When everything is fine to such a fine extent, it makes me uncomfortable.. Is everything actually fine or is it some lull before a storm??

The kind of life that I am used to living, does not have allow me to be so comfortable.. I am used to be on my toes all the time.. Its hard for me to digest that there are no issues coming from anywhere.. Everyone seems to be happy, satisfied and contented. Is it that everyone has given up on me or there actually is no problem??? Why am I being pessimistic.. I dont know... May be the amount of effort I am putting in, allows this comfort factor to come in..

I know things are fine.. Still I am restless.. somewhere in my heart I have this feeling that there is storm waiting for me and it will be a big one.. I want to be prepared for it, incase there is any... But I also know the fact that such upheavals are not known before.. You can only hope for the best but be prepared for the worst, as the saying goes.. But here the situation is that I dont know what to be prepared for... I cant foresee what can go wrong and where?? Who all will be affected and in what way?? What is it that I can do to make sure that such a phase passes calmly...

May be I am thinking too much.. May be I need to take a break...

Friday, July 11, 2008

American Accent!!!

So the angrezi or the American accent has managed to grabbed a few people I know very closely... I have a few friends staying in US... They are married and have kids... Now that the kids are grown up, they have started the school...

Was talking to one of them and she was quite excited about the fact that her kids were being educated in US... I wondered why?? What is it in US that is not present in India?? She replied that she wants her kids to talk in American accent and that can only be possible if they are educated there... oh!!! American accent... what an answer.... She thinks that her kids will be treated as 'cool' or with respect if they can speak in that accent... she really wants them to pick it up so she is going to be there for a while..

All through this conversation, I wondered what is so special about that accent. Are we not trying to project something else by talking in a different accent... If it is enhancing somebody's vocabulary, its good... But simply to pick up the accent.. This actually reminds me of people who travel overseas for some assignments for a few months/years and talk in that accent when they come back home.. It all sounds so fake and put up...

The whole emphasis on the accent was too much.. It had got nothing to do with learning proper grammar or the language but the accent.. The fact is accepted that one should talk in a proper way but specially in a way that will sound as fake will make the person appear as fake.. may be some people need that education that talking in a particular accent does not makes a person look good but talking in a right way is what is needed the most...

I may sound like who is totally against American culture but the reality is I am too Indian to accept anything else which I find is good here...

Friday, July 04, 2008

Change is constant

Something that I have learnt over a period of time. Change is the only thing that is constant in this world. I guess change always brings about something good and some new challenges as well...

I manage three clients in my office one of which is Siemens. A very demanding and tough to please client. A client who does not appreciates easily(rather rarely they appreciate) and even a small issue is blown out of proportion... A very high visibility, oldest, complex, challenging and high revenue generating client. They are the ones who will not accept even a slightest difference in what they want. Quality has to be upto the mark everytime. Most of you may think, but this is the same with every client... Aint it... No.. siemens is different... I had the same perception till I worked on it... Its like a atom bomb.. You have to be very careful with it.. Otherwise you never know when will it explode and the consequences have a ripple effect till a long time...

I have taken care of it for the last 2 years like a baby. It has been with me almost ever since I joined this office... Now the time has come to hand over this little atom bomb to another colleague... I have mixed emotions for leaving this client... A part of me is happy while a part of me is sad.. This client taught me a lot... Confidence, self-defense, motivation, challenge, handling issues, escalations... My other clients are not so complex.. Though I am getting a new client in place of this, still I dont want to let go of this...

I know I will not have the capacity to handle all the four clients together, still I want to keep it.. I am in the process of starting the transition. Needless to say, the other person is not very happy to get this.. Infact nobody wants it.. At one point of time, even I didnt want it.. But now I am used to it.. If I dont hear something from the other end, it makes me restless.. I feel something is missing.. Is everything alright or it the lull before the storm... But now the time will change.. I will actually not hear anything from them.. Nothing will come to me.. I shall miss the mails.. The fun that I had in this team.. Our ups and downs.. I am surely going to miss it..Infact I have already started ever since the news came to me...

Hope to find similar challenges as I walk along.. Adieus Siemens!!! I shall miss you...

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Girl - Bread winner??

I know this is quite a controversial topic but I cant keep myself away from it.. Especially after having a long discussion on it with a friend... All the conversation started with me wanting a break from this monotonous routine... I was on the verge of saying that I dont want to work for sometime... Need a break, want to either chill at home or go on a long vacation or study further....

As the conversation progressed, I shared that this is not possible as of now.. The break is not possible.. For this I will have to leave the job and right now its not feasible for me... I dont have enough savings to support myself for the next two years without working.. The way the inflation is rising, its all the more difficult.. The friend remarked that why am I being the bread winner of the family... It went on to the extent of accusing that being a girl I should not have to worry so much about the house hold expenses... I should be taken care of and a 'male' member in the family should be doing all this... This surprised me..

I realized that this was getting too personal and I didnt want to share my personal life like this... I simply had to tell him that there is no point in arguing.. I know what I am doing and what others in my family do... I dont need to prove a point to him....

What was worth noticing was that even in these days, people think that a girl cannot be a bread winner of the family. Why not.. If the boy and the girl are educated on the same lines, then why can’t a girl support the family, even if it is out of choice... what is wrong in it?? Why cant people still accept the fact that the girl is supporting the family and she is capable of doing it. We talk about equality and then this discrimination comes from people who call themselves educated. Talk about gender bias, or a typical male chauvinist or a hypocrite...