Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Painful Flights

Flying can be so painful at times... For me its always painful.... First the delays which leads to endless waits at the airport and then the sickness in the plane.... Its too much for me.....

Had been to Mumbai on the weekend.. I was not ready for the trip but still had to go... As my luck would have it, the flight was delayed by two hours.. Came to know about it when I reached the airport... How irritated I was since I had come leaving my team lunch and work at office...

Sitting there I was watching people... Didnt even have any book with me to read :-((.... People from all walks of life were there... I could make out that there some who were travelling for the first time.. Their anxiety, happiness, nervousness, excitement were clearly visible... Sitting at the airport doing nothing is the most frustrating thing, specially if you are travelling half-heartedly...

Once you have checked-in, you cant even go out... On top of it, the airlines called me when I was already at the airport, informing that the fight is delayed.... The flight was supposed to take off at 4:15 p.m... It got delayed by 2 hours and then it was expected to take off at 6:00 p.m.... Finally, it took off at 7:00 p.m...... How badly my head was aching at that time... Sitting like a fool at the aiport, doing nothing... How I hate to fly....

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Lost

I'm lost ~ I've gone to find myself.
If I should return before I get back, please ask me to wait.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Realisation

I have realised

- that there is no one worth crying for in this world.
- that if I deserve something, it'll come automatically to me.
- that I cannot change my destiny, no matter how hard I try or pray.
- that good things don't come so easily.
- that there is a price to be paid for every mistake that we commit.
- that its hard to find true love.
- that it is very important to have my own importance.
- that I should not expect anything from anyone.
- that luck plays a very important part in our lives.
- that it is upto us to be happy or sad.
- that life is not very easy.
- that being lonely all the time is bad.
- that falling in love is the most beautiful thing.
- that separation is the most painful thing.
- that it is very important to have someone in our life who loves us truly.
- that I cannot ask for love, I can only give it.
- that I should not change myself for anyone.
- that I need to give others their space.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Hungry kya?

Right now, I am damn hungry... I dont have anything to eat with me. So I am writing. I can think of all the good things that are available to eat. Desserts, chaat, rolls, pizza, burger, spaghetti, ice-creams, cakes, food made by Mom.... Am just hungry.... Ready to eat anything....

With the winters setting in, I have started feeling more hungry... At this time of the day, I hardly ever ate anything... Now I have to eat something otherwise my head aches and I cant concentrate.... My appetite has also increased suddenly. I keep on eating and have to force myself to stop eating... People around me are happy to see me eating... They have their own perception: I need to gain weight, Its good to eat, I eat very less, I work for very long hours, I need nutrition...

All this does not make sense to me... I actually fear of weight gain. I dont like eating at odd hours. I dont want to upset my routine... I dont want to eat junk food. I hope I get back to my proper schedule of having meals at fixed times.

Having said all this, I am having an eclair while I write this post.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Widow Re-marriage

As the movie Baabul released on Friday, I could easily relate it to the incident that happened in my family. The movie deals with the re-marriage of a young woman who has lost her husband.

More than 40 years back(I was not even born at that time), my eldest uncle and aunt were driving home in US... Aunt was driving. Just then there was a head on collision. My uncle died on the spot. Thankfully, my aunt was saved though she did suffer some injuries. It was quite a big blow for the family especially for my Grandparents who lost their young son... My Grandmother could not take the shock and expired sometime later.

My Grandfather stood like a pillar and held the whole family together. He also took the decision of getting my aunt re-married. He had a very clear logic. She is young and has a whole life ahead. She needs someone to be with her all through her life. Also who is there to take care of her once he passes away.

All this had happened when widow re-marriages were not acceptable. But my Grandfather showed prudence and against all odds, my aunt was married off. I can proudly say today that this was his wisest decision. She is very happy, settled with her loving husband and two wonderful sons. She still says that its all because of my Grandfather that she has a life of her own and she is so happy. I hope and pray that there are more people like my Grandfather in this world, who understand the pain of an individual and are more logical, rather than following old customs and traditions laid down by the society.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Sharp Memory

Somebody's birthday or anniversary comes up and I shall be the first one to wish them. It surprises them to no end that how do I make sure to wish them? Is there a birthday book or a alarm or a diary which reminds me of the upcoming events. The truth is that I have none of these.

The alarm is my brain which stores all this information and hence I am able to wish everyone. Infact this has become such a regular feature that people actually wait for my wish either through call, sms or greeting cards. My whole family, friends, relatives, acquaintances wonder that how do I manage to remember their birthdays, anniversaries!!! Infact one of my friend even said once that I am in the wrong profession with a good memory like this. I should have been doing something related to History where I just need to memorize dates... History...No way!!! How much I used to hate it!!!!

I am happy with this sharp memory which helps me to remember the important days without any help of diaries... I feel happy to wish someone and see that same happy look on their face.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Truth

How very true is this:

kabhi kisi ko mukkamal jahan nahi milta
kisi ko zameen, kisi ko aasman nahi milta.