Thursday, March 30, 2006

No Work

Its been almost four days since I dont have any work to do. Have joined office after a long gap of three weeks and still there is no work for me. The managers are still planning what should be given to me. This is not acceptable. Everytime I start getting hold of the situation, I am asked to move on. Why are they doing this to me? Is it wrong to ask for things clearly? Nobody is bothered about others here and they still expect results. Guess this happens everywhere but it was not the same previously. We were told everything clearly - what we are supposed to do, what is expected of us, which direction should we move onto. No, I am certainly not asking for spoon feed. There are few directions I need and I dont think that its wrong to do that. Thats what I and I am sure, many others also feel so.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Change

Things change so quickly sometimes that we dont even get time to think about it. Again there is a change in the team and I really dont know what is in store for me. I just hope that something good is on its way. It seems like things are just getting complicated day by day or is it just my way of looking at it. I am trying hard that atleast once life should move smoothly but it doesnt seem to happen. Why is it that I have to struggle really hard to get anything in life? Am I not deserving enough to get what I want normally? Why does destiny have to go against my wishes everytime?

Monday, March 27, 2006

After a long time!!!

After a long time I am visiting this site. Never knew that being ill can be so frustrating at times. Was down with Chicken Pox. Had been out of office for 3 weeks. Have not even earned those many leaves in this job than I have taken. The illness has left scars on my body as well as mind. May be scars on my body will fade with time but on my mind!! Perhaps it will take a long long time to fade or it will never. The reaction of people when they saw me has left me wondering. Is it that being borne as not so good looking is a taboo in this world ?? What has happened to me can happen with everyone. What one needs at that time is love, affection, support and not those touch-me-not looks. Even I am also aware that its infectious and I will never do anything that might harm them. Now even after I am fine with just scars left, people are looking at me in a suspicious way. May be they are still scared to come near me or talk to me. I dont blame them, for it is human nature. But at the same time, one has to understand that this is something not in one's own hands. If you get it, you have to suffer it.

Guess this is how world is and I have to accept it.